I need to start off by stating that this is one of my favorite episodes to date. This is a trail of thoughtful sonic mystery that is laden with deep emotional experiences... an expression of the state of mind I often find myself in lately.
As the war in Iraq "winds down" (as if the 50,000 troops left there are in no danger) my thoughts shift continualy to Sgt. Damon Fawcett of A Co. 3rd Plt. 1st Recon Battalion USMC. Damon took his own life a few years ago after returning from 30 consecutive days of combat in the initial invasion in 2003.
Though I have struggled with coming to terms with his death I do have some sense of peace about it. The things he left me with, the ideas and the a deeper knowledge of the war from an insider's perspective has left me torn between understanding and utter anger. If there is one thing that Damon taught me before he died it was that there is no complete or definitive answer to what the war actually means. This episode is dedicated to him, an homage to the conflicts within his spirit. We lost more than a life, we lost a story and I know how many other's have experienced the same. In the military post-combat suicides are not considered casualties of war... I will never understand why.
The music on this episode illustrates a paradox of emotions through contemporary new wave, post-punk and ambient records from 2005-09. The songs themselves have no connection to war and for me this is fitting. The rest you'll just have to listen to...